However, every now and then I (we) often let ourselves catched off-guard; fence down and weeds reappear. We “forget” every now and then about #UNITY in #marriage.
It is not about our own (too little) kingdom, but it’s about God’s kingdom on earth.
Then when conflict arised, we weren’t prepared. By then it felt like it was “too late”.
Yesterday I had a talk with my close friend/cousin/sister #thebest about this topic, I told her I don’t want to pray out of fear as the result. You know, fear that “if I didn’t pray, things will get chaotic“.
I believe this isn’t the right motive and the correct heart condition to pray. And it soothed my soul that she understands! She knows and experiences the same thing (the beauty of sisterhood in Christ).
This morning then His Spirit reminds me this verse:
“For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity,
but of POWER, LOVE, and SELF-DISCIPLINE” (2 Tim 1:7).
I can, CAN, pray not out of fear – because His Spirit enables me to!
Praying out of flesh will result in burn out, praying in spirit will take me to higher places with Him.
This morning I choose to reject the lies and intimidation,
This morning I choose to listen to the Shepherd’s voice.
He knows my name, and I belong to Him.
I will keep praying and become the “pillar of prayer” for this family #istriadalahtiangdoa
I will not complain and asking God (again), “why me? why do I have to be the one who prays?”. I know now that the Lord is reassuring and reconfirming me once again, to pray is my calling. I am called first and above all as an intercessor. Not in the church, not in my cell group – but firstly at my home! Just between me and Him, beneath the silent walls of my home.
When later I get weary, I shall take rest in Him, again and again.
“This is what the Sovereign LORD, the Holy One of Israel, says: “In repentance and rest is your salvation, in quietness and trust is your strength, but you would have none of it” – Isaiah 30:15