This morning before Aimee went to school, she asked me this unusual question:
“Mami, is today the last day?”
Me (perplexed): “Last day of what? What do you mean?”
Aimee: “Is there going to be another day tomorrow? When is the last day?”
Me (still perplexed): “From where did you know there is an end to our days?”
Aimee: “I just think of it by myself”.
Me: “Well, only God knows the end of our days, Aimee. Nobody knows”.
Aimee: “I wish God let me know, I wish God let me know everything He knows”.
Me: “Human cannot understand everything that God knows”
(Then change of topic).
Certainly that isn’t our regular morning conversation!
And now that she’s at school and I come to think about it again, I feel uneasy in my heart.
Even a 6-years old child knows there is an end to our days.
That one of these days on this earth gonna be our “last”. And yet I sometimes live my life on earth like I think this’d be “forever”.
Every moment I spend complaining seems like just a waste of time compared to this “eternity” God has prepared for me and our family.
Every impulse decision I make outside of Him, any resentment, any ignorance towards people — these are a waste of time compared to His much greater and bigger plan for my life!
I cried for forgiveness, and for His grace and help to remind me of this truth the next time I don’t have desires to do His wills.
Life is just too short to prioritise myself, my own agenda, my own dream.
The life I live now is not even “Chapter One” YET.
This is just a “preview”. Exactly like the quote from CS Lewis I post above.
I need His grace to live accordingly. Only by His strength.
Thank You Holy Spirit for speaking through my daughter this morning about Your heart desire… 🌾