Outside is cloudy and gloomy weather. Winter season in Melbourne. I’m sitting with a mug of coffee and small candle lit. My youngest is sitting next to me doodling with my vast collection of colorful pens that I keep handy on the dining table (every second or so she interrupts me), while her sister is still peacefully sleeping on my bed after she move from her own this morning before her dad leaves home to work.
School holiday is on for two weeks. The last couples of days I really have a good time with my kids, and I intend to do so for the rest of this holiday. And when the school starts again, it will be a reminder for this mumma to not be so much in a rush that she forgets to slow down and just savor the moment with her children. For now it means I have some time to write.
Earlier in the morning I remember a set of questions regarding my spiritual life I saved in my mobile phone at the beginning of the year. I intended to sit down, meditate the questions and write down my thoughts — and these are only happening now, 6 months later. right. Never too late.
I’m writing this blog entry to answer the one and first question out of many (because after I finish writing I’ve just realized I write lengthy enough already for only one question! lol. The rest of the other questions are actually good way to prompt me to write my next blog posts). So, here is the first one:
What’s one thing you could do this year to increase your enjoyment of God?
Before you quickly answer your own, would you take some moment to meditate the word “to enjoy God“? For me, to enjoy God isn’t really about “going to church diligently, not to miss a single week” etc. I feel I’d miss a HUGE bull eye if I thought in that way. When you “enjoy” something, say, a new café, you’d go there not just for the sake of putting your feet at the place. You’d really be interested to taste the food, embrace its surrounding, to really let yourself be present, be there — your heart and your mind (mobile phone camera to capture the pretty food is acceptable, occasionally :P).
When you “enjoy” your time with a friend, “what to talk about” isn’t really an issue. I have a twin best friends live in Singapore. We’ve been friends since we were in Kinder. Despite our distance, we chat frequently via WhatsApp, and whenever I visit Singapore during a holiday, we talk and share our hearts even more excitedly and never run out of a topic!
What can I do to increase such enjoyment with God?
I usually have my quiet time with God in the morning. When I freshly awake, with a cup of coffee in hand, there is a fine time slot in between after I finish my morning chores with the kids and before I walk to school with them. But lately I’ve been thinking, why do I restrict my time only in the morning with Him? Sure, I can still pray and read the Bible sometime later in the afternoon.
But the thing is, I’d been getting used to use my time at night to “relax and watch TV”. After busy and sometimes exhausting day, I just want my night to be as lazy as a couch potato. Therefore I prefer to do my art works/orders during the day in the midst of multitasking other motherhood duties, and at night I just want to retreat. In front of TV. Even sometimes I don’t really watch it, it just came out of habit. Night time equals with TV time, you get it? haha.
Now why do I not retreat, in God’s presence instead? I feel it is time to break out the habit. Lately I’ve done it several times, and I can say that I find it is satisfying! I’m in no rush to chase the school bell; I’m free to sing any worship songs, reading a book (and not just one paragraph then fallen asleep lol), reading the Bible (following up the morning chapters, or reading other chapters that I feel the Holy Spirit draws me to).
By the grace of God, I feel more motivated to trade off my “TV night time” now with “retreat time” with Him instead.
When you enjoy time with God, “what to talk about” and “what to do” are not really an issue. The creativity will flow in, inspired by His Spirit lives within us.
Don’t let the “how” hinders us to come to Him. Begin our step by giving our time.
God’s given us invaluable gift of twenty four hours in a day. 24 hours that is actually on loan! In any given time He can take them away from us, our moment living on earth ends and we will turn into dust. But our spirit will either go together with Him in heaven, or to hell — both of them eternally. forever. once it’s done, it’s done. That’s why our decision how we live our life now is significant — it is about our life and death!
Come close to God, and God will come close to you. Wash your hands, you sinners; purify your hearts, for your loyalty is divided between God and the world
Here on earth we have the chance to make the decision – God, or the world. Choose one, not both. We live in vanity and lying to our own self if we “love God” and at the same time also “love the world”.
1 John 2:15
Do not love this world nor the things it offers you, for when you love the world, you do not have the love of the Father in you.
The good news is, because of how great is God’s love for the world (John 3:16), Jesus Christ has become the sacrifice for our sins by dying at the cross. His precious blood has washed away sins for those who believe and He has risen on the third day, defeating the impossible and the death. For those who believe in Him, they are called children of God and His Spirit lives within them (John 1:12).
With such an amazing grace, how could I not love Him in return? With such a great faithfulness and love, how could I not want to enjoy more time with Him?
I pray may you give a heart thirst and hunger after You. To seek you in my hours, to love you with my life. Thank You for everything You have done for me, thank You for being faithful even when I am not. Help me to live for You and not to be double-minded. In Jesus’ name, amen.